Do I dare do a throwback from the days long ago when I was a comedian in Hollywood?
Was it really 18 years ago? Yes, yes it was!
Time flies when your living a life of self-expression.
And life changes. We change. Our needs, our passions, our perspectives.. so many things. We learn and we grow.
But some things do not change. They just take another form. Or another flavor. But we still can savor our gifts, our unique work in the world.
I do alchemy a little different now.
With comedy, it used to be writing and developing my own jokes and show so people could laugh. I really liked doing stand-up because I got to take dark situations and expose them to the light. It was pure alchemy. A kind of energy work. Back then, I didn’t even know what it meant to ‘shift energy.’
But comedy was intense and often “dark” work. I loved it and I was good at it, but I found that my anxiety and obsessive habits were being triggered. I was scared a lot. My fears at an all-time high. Looking back, it was a huge teacher for me at that time. Possibly the biggest one in my life because it broke me open. It lead me to another path. 💓
That of soul-connection and self-love. Empowerment from within. True change.
And it was hard to let-go. Really hard! I had so much fear around leaving comedy. My ego wanted to hang on so badly to an old story and dream. An old way of relating to others. And yet, my soul was calling elsewhere.
It was time to heal myself instead of everyone else. To learn to please and take care of myself first, instead of everyone else. It was a time to learn how to stop needing so much damn approval from outside of myself.
And mostly, it was time to make friends with my soul. To turn my own dark into light and tend to the alchemy of my own soul.
I still practice alchemy today, but it’s in a different form now. And not only my self-care, but by assisting others and giving them unique, do-able self-care methods. Like how to release anxiety and even create time for this self-care thing. All through sharing my resource archives, videos and one-on-one online coaching.
And of course, creating moments for laughter!
For inquiries on coaching, send me an email, an instagram message, or head to my website (below).
With great love and spirit,
(Photo credit by Juan Lopez)